Yes I know, it should be Frequently Asked Questions, but I’m a pirate, whatcha gonna do ’bout it?
Anyways, this time I thought I give answers to questions I hear a lot. The most common questions are about my physique and although I wrote a blog about it, it keeps changing so much I can’t even keep track of it sometimes. Since my birthday is coming up next Saturday let’s make this a special blog and let’s start the first FAQ with the most common question asked:
Are you always in pain?
Yes, although, discomfort would be more the word to use here. I have pain on a daily basis but not constantly. It’s like playing with a light switch. It comes and goes during the day, only you don’t know when, where or how the light will go on. (It’s a real fun game!) There is always a sense of discomfort due to nerve damage and the most is while sitting (groin) or standing (sciatica.) I kind of have to move the whole time or find a balance between sitting, standing and lying down.
The results are several sensations, actually after analyzing it the last two years I could say two pains with a variety of sensations.
Pain 1: From my spine through my left leg it’s the sciatica. This results in discomfort and pain in the hip joint, hamstring, stiffness in the ankle.
Pain 2: Right groin. What the problem is exactly we don’t know but after various therapist and doctors, doctor El Hage helped me relief myself of the most part of the pain. It is a stuck nerve, I can clearly feel it at certain moments. Overlapping muscles and an infection also have had their fair share in keeping me in my bed for days. For the last 2 months it’s seems bearable thanks to Body Stress Relief and therapist Bjorn van de Ree. I still feel room for improvement and I keep working on this area by daily yoga exercises.
To complete this all I have a consistent urge to go to the bathroom and when I’m touched on certain places it’s like touching a plasma ball but with nerves.
Why do you still walk with the cane?
I have temporally unbalances. These happen by a sort of short circuit in my nervous system. They feel like electrical shocks that can weaken me for a second. (This makes it seem like I’m drunk, but that’s only after 10.00 am.) These short moments have made me trip, fall and even break a toe (I still managed to finish my 100 days of 100 push ups, so no excuses! It was an epiphany to, or give up and be a cry baby, or show how bad ass I wanted to be… I still cried a little though…)
I mostly walk with my cane so I won’t scare people as I pass by and suddenly make a unbalanced move. Also, when walking or standing for longer periods of time it helps me with pain relief in my back and maintain a more healthy balance.
It also comes in handy when people try to steal my cookies! (Or chocolate cake!)
How often do you do yoga?
Every day! Well, almost every day. (Since March this year (2015) I really started doing it every day.) I have had some days that I just didn’t have the time because I had to rush to an early doctor’s appointment (my body is really stiff early in the morning) and twice because my body (brain!) just couldn’t (didn’t want to.) Lately I’m even more fanatic and I do poses through the day, during my work or between my strength training. It keeps me flexible, in tone (body and mind) and it helps controlling (or awaken) the nerve itches and burns. It also feels amazing to be able to control my body and to feel the progress in my balance.
Why do you train so hard?
I’ve heard some misconceptions from people. That I want to become big, muscled, toned but none of it is true. The most simple and honest answer I can give you? I want to be the best I can be! Body and mind. I use my body to control my mind and my mind to control my body. Some moments you need to shut up and push through and others you have to sit still and accept. I found a healthy balance that is always in an imbalance that I have to correct by doing strength or endurance training, yoga or just the most pure of all exercises, meditation.
I do yoga seven days a week. Strength training depending on how my body feels and reacts but 3 to 5 times a week if I’m able. I build a parkour around my workplace with equipment so I can work, train and play simultaneously.
Where do you get your motivation?
I am my motivation. If I can’t motivate me for myself for who else should I do it? What are my options? Work hard and you’ll get what you wish for, that’s my motivation. And the dreams I build being in the rehabilitation clinic. Seeing people who were less fortunate as me made me step up my game to be able to help them. So I help myself so I can help them. It started by fixing the tables for other patients in the clinic, making sure I was on time at the therapy session and creating a smile when I saw some of my fellow patients down. I committed myself to this goal and that’s why I started 2ndLife Curaçao. I can only accomplish my goal if I am as strong as possible. Balanced between the mind, heart and body.
My goal is to have the means to visit the rehabilitation clinic regularly and bring hope and joy to the people that are struggling. With 2ndLife Curacao I aim to even create or offer a job or some sort of re-education. My business started so I can help myself and them, and that vision is clear in my dreams. Eventually I want to have a workshop filled with inspiring and inspired people, so we can inspire a whole island with what’s possible, if you put your mind to it.
Do you consider yourself a role model?
No! Yes… I have to be…? I don’t want to but do I love to be one? It’s double, I don’t think I should be a role model. I’m too stubborn, too rough of a diamond, but heck, maybe that’s exactly
what’s needed. I noticed people admiring what I did (do) and I adjusted myself to that role. I still am. It’s not an easy role and the responsibility doesn’t always feel as something I want to carry.
But the cards are dealt, I’m playing a part that seems to be considered a role model. If I want to see the change I have envisioned I need walk upfront.
Just roll with it…