A deep intimate connection

I have this deep, deep, deep intimate connection with myself.

It is deeper than touch and filled with an intense fulfilling emotion. It is a strength covering a core of vulnerability. It would almost feel unreal, if I didn’t experience it myself. It’s untouchable but not unbreakable.

It is almost five years ago that I saw someone close her eyes forever in my arms and I made her a promise:

“I will live for the both of us.”

This initiated a transformation that I am still part of today. I am no saint, nor a hero. I’m far from perfect actually and I’m not afraid to confront myself with it. I was a simple boy, full of insecurities that had to grow into a man in a split second. I had to stumble, literally, over hurdles to become who I am. I set a standard and raised it every time it was met.

I could always do one more step. On more smile. Right? (I had to ask myself.) What I held back for years, exploded into a force that propels me forward, taking life as it comes. Revolving, always revolving and no way to be stopped.

I didn’t know for sure till I tried. I wrote it down, I cried it in paper and defined who I was. Who I wanted to be. This time for real. I had to serve and create this thing bigger than me. I promised her! I promissed myself. And I urged myself to be patient.

“Learn.”

“Discover your core. Work harder. Rest longer.”

“Learn more.”

“Grow wiser. Grow stronger”

And I trusted myself as I had never done before. And then… I let it all go…

In four years, I learned to walk. Learned to live. Started a business with nothing but some chump change to learn to work and that work build a life I never thought was possible. Four years I worked towards the moment and the moment never came for I said every time I got close:

“Just a little bit more.”

I was living what I had promised her. No guilt, no blame, no judgement. Just this enormous spiritual garden where I can walk around and pick the feelings that I need and water the ones that should grow. Weed the ones that are harmful while I harvest what is ripe and give to the world what I believe to know.

Dealing with depression, pain, loss, anxiety and insecurities has been a part of my past. And because of that it will be part of my future. Although I have made an alternative choice, I will use all my knowledge to better the world surrounding me. In my new life, I have this deep intimate connection with myself. I feel life, I smell life and I see life in a brighter light than I ever imagined. I trust myself to be aware of my surroundings, inherently seeing that everything is free. I feel the love that I give and that I may receive. Therefore I am free, I have found a way to share this deep passionate feeling that I had inside me all these years.

I am mine, but my gift to you, is yours to keep.

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Music of Choice: Pearl Jam – Garden

I don’t question
our existence
I just question
our modern needs

I will walk…with my hands bound
I will walk…with my face blood
I will walk…with my shadow flag
into your garden
garden of stone

after all is done
we’re still alone
I won’t be taken
yet I’ll go…

The Recycled Pirate

After a life altering accident that was supposed to leave me paralyzed, I found a new purpose in life. I quickly realized that if I wanted to walk again, I had to change my mindset as it relates to my emotional health and my self-expression. Sitting in a wheelchair I had plenty of time to contemplate life and that’s when I desired to earn a spot on a TEDx stage. After four years of hard work I accomplished that dream in 2016 and I realized I had more to give to the world than working 4 years for 15 minutes of fame. I had created a project in the previous years, 2nd Life Curaçao, to get me from a disability check (welfare) to become a small business owner. It even won me the JCI IOBA Aspiring Creative Entrepreneur of the Year Award in 2015 and as my cycle from wheelchair to social entrepreneur completed, I understood that the message I was taught, wasn’t mine to keep. I started coaching people that were dealing with life’s difficulties and still felt I was playing small. It is easy listening to someone for me and give them advice on how to solve it, but I wanted to go deeper into the human programming and really understand why we feel sad, angry or jealous. This led me to meditation, mindfulness, yoga and alter my mindset completely. What I realized in this journey that everything I learned I already had in me. I just didn’t know… It became my calling to plant as many seeds in as many people as possible and teach them that they are powerful beyond means. As I spoke in more classrooms and at large corporations, I would get personal questions and I understood that the message starts within us. People want to know their why. Their how. And their what. I decided to write those answers in daily quotes on Instagram and Facebook, but soon wanted them to become physical. We are touching our phones enough and how can I coach people without being there? By creating recycled paper postcards and organic fair trade cotton t-shirt with quotes that came straight from my coaching and public speaking business. If I can re-learn to walk, that means I can relearn how to think and now it my turn to help as many people as possible starting with you. Find me on Instagram or Twitter or watch my TEDx Aruba Talk From Wheelchair to Social Entrepreneur here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxY7hRhZKAk&t=5s.

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