“I see you. You are beautiful. To me. For me. You are everything that should be seen by this world full of make believe. You are real. You are loved. You are safe.”
I wish I could say I didn’t know better. I wish I had an excuse but all I could say would never take away my mistakes. However, I’m not going to stop there. I have a plan and I’ve been committing to it. I’m going to confess, I’m going to grow and I’m going to educate myself and all men and women, I can see or touch, around me.
I took the little bit of life that was left of me and I went to change it. I had to see everything with open eyes, open mind and a forgiving heart. I set on a new path of RECYCLING (my) LIFE!
I am no saint, nor a hero. I’m far from perfect actually and I’m not afraid to confront myself.
My life was a waste. For many years I was ruled by cigarettes, drugs, alcohol, sex, it was all so good but none of it brought me the life I desired. Insecurities, fear and anxiety destroyed hopes and dreams. "They" said I was "up to no good." I was a mess till I lost my life. I didn't die. I could still breathe, but everything else died in front of me...
“You got this!” I enforced on myself as I rammed my cain almost through the pavement waiting for the car to pass and I could cross the road of freedom.
Nobody can offend me, hurt me or touch me unless I let it happen. Nobody can make me happy, create a smile or make a success of my day unless I make or let it happen. I'm in balance to accept the bad and rule the good.
I took the obligation to fight as a knight and rebel as a Pirate, both warriors for their cause. I don’t divide. I unite. I don't listen to Ghandi, Bob Marley or Nelson Mandela. I live them.